The power of REVENGE

Revenge, is such a disastrous and scary form of emotion in human beings. Technically, to me the most interesting fact of this emotion is its sustainability in the mind. Human beings forget many great things inlife and they move ahead in their day to day life. In due course of time they forget good things & bad things as well. But REVENGE sustains, though the level of intensity differs from person to person...from hatred to KILL.

Its sustainability in memory and with the same amount of intensity for that long duration...is beyond any form of science.


The way people are killing each other by playing the waiting game, under the influence of FACTION POLITICS in the state of ANDHRA PRADESH in INDIA, is definitley a shocking surprise.

Crime & Killings are not new to the world...but the waiting game, one after the other vanishing ...the sustainability of the so called human emotion called REVENGE for years together is definitely something special of its kind...

DEATH has been waiting for a person more than 13 years...its actually waiting in the minds of human beings somewhere...may be the thought is being transfered everytime to the next generation...

I was talking to one of my friend 2 months ago, when I saw a tv interview of MADDELACHERVU SURI...how long can he survive and lead life like a normal being ever after, as he has been one of the mainstays of factionism...for sure the forces must be waiting for the right time...this was exactly the theme of my discussion...

one more astonishing fact I observed in that interview was SURI knew that his life is just a matter of time, he strongly believes in it & expressed the same...he looked soft only while framing his words & body language, but his eyes has it all...TERROR & REVENGE...

...MADDELACHERVU SURI is HISTORY since Jan 03rd, 2011...but not the REVENGE...the emotion is still live and kicking...somewhere...waiting for someone else...the wait could even be 100 years...

cleanliness is NOT next to Godliness

cleanliness is NOT next to Godliness, it is GODLINESS. - BVN

will write about it soon...just posted the side heading to remind myself.

06th November - thunders and sparks

I am so ecstatic that I got my ROYAL ENFIELD THUNDERBIRD TWINSPARK delivered today. Lets call it TB.

It has been pouring cats and dogs...since a week or so, but somehow I made it to the showroom around 5:30pm, the delivery process is all done in just less than half-an-hour...but no way out for me...it was like as if some one made a big hole in the sky, there is no stopping and no signs of that either...njoyed sometime from balcony and sometime going thru automobile magazines...and finally sick of all that.

I waited till 9pm...and bored to hell..atlast I told the showroom guys to show me the way with my TB. TRUST ME...It was fun driving in that hell like RAINNNNNNNNNN...its heaven infact. I was changing gears so very carefully, as if it hurts him and he will cry...when I reached the third gear...the legendary throttle sound propagated into the air and then on to my ears...so soothing it was...In just a minute...there was no dry place left on my skin...its like you are driving under a waterfall...roads are like small ponds and some ponds are really big you know... the focus of the headlight in that rain is worthit to experience. I should not be crossing 40kmph till i complete the first 500kms...but driving this bike at 40kmph in 5th gear is like buying a mainframe computer inorder to execute a quick sort program. I have to cross 5000kmph asap...to keep the world behind me :):):) But after 2000 kmph Im allowed to cross 60 kmph...that itself would make the heads turn I suppose... As if I care for those heads :):):)

Back home around 11pm, on the way backhome...there is a ganesh temple just a few yards away from my home, which was closed at that time (obviously)...parked my bike right infront of Ganeshji and asked him to have a look, did a namaskar & ran away...and then ...

changed everything...took a hotwater headbath...and waited till 2am for the rain to stop and to CONQUER ROADS WITH MY BRAND NEW BULL...and and and that can be considered as one of the best moments of life...huh...hardly anyone on the roads...literally played with my bike up and down the flyovers...till 3pm...travelled around 40kmphs at a stretch within the city...on the very first day(night)...

backhome around 3:10am...only because it started to bristle again...otherwise i had no plans to get down from my bull atleast till I finish off that 500rs petrol...:):):)

hit the bed around 3:40am...got up around 6am again and went running to look at that smarty(TB) from the balcony, without even checking what I was wearing during the night...thankfully I have some clothes on. As there is no separate parking place :):) my bull had to stand on the road (inner roads...ok)...there are dozens parked out there...satisfied to see that it was safe ...

it was still raining..slept again...and got up at 11 am...it was still raining...

hmmm i got to know finally that life can be so very interesting with this so called brand...royal enfield...

may be oneday i will grab that 500cc bullet classic as well...im just 20 days early to pay the advance to this handsome guy (TB)...otherwise i would have opted for that WAR MACHINE for sure...

but there is no doubt this "ROYAL ENFIELD Thunderbird Twinspark" brought thunders and sparks into my life...

...thats it for now...chalo then...njoy your weekend in your own way (don't copy mine..he he )...it is still raining huh...

damnit 6:48pm...im waiting since 4 hrs to getout of my room...its raining...

"2 States" by Chetan Bhagat

sunday evening...took lunch and then been to that second hand bookshop, if im at home on weekends, it will be evening by the time i take lunch. CLEANING CLEANING CLEANING.

I had nothing in my mind about the books for that day...just thought of going through the racks...and ChetanBhagat's latest grabbed my attention, since I have already read his last three books.

He is cashing more on the INDIAN-Student(or)Youth-Romance factor most of the time, i suppose, there is very little in him to compare with international authors...but still...it is a timepass kind of stuff...nothing serious about it.

I saw the price, it is 95rs...i asked the shopkeeper for a discount...im used to this habit in bookshops since my college days. In response...Interestingly the shopkeeper pulled a book under the desk (it is hidden intentionally somewhere )...and said..."this copy is just 65rs"...i was like wow !!! how come he had a duplicate so soon, because "Two States" is pretty new...hardly a week i suppose. The shopkeeper continued ..."same same...everything same as the original...just the paper"...he said.

I said..." duplicate should only be 50rs, isn't it?"...in reply...and to my surprise ...the shopkeeper replied..."ya you are right, that will be 50rs for sure...but 2 weeks later"...i could not stop laughing loud at him, I liked his attitude...finally he agreed to deduct 5 rs...and the deal done for rs 60...

Since Im not intending to be a modern Gandhiji and I dont want a great paper quality for a chetanbhagat's book...and hence i hve selected the duplicate copy...(the only difference is the paper quality...rest everything has been copied to perfection, including the cover page, color, etc)...

Poor Chetan...definitely losing money here...sorry dude...35rs makes more sense to a smart Indian...!!!!

if that is AYN RAND OR JEFEREY ARCHER...i dont mind 100 bugs more to grab an original copy...because i can read those books many times in my life...

I cant help !!! Im born like this :-)

HYPOCRISY

coming up....

CAN YOU CHANGE ?

question : can you change anyone ?

answer : No they have to change themselves.

Coming up.

POLITICS IN SOFTWARE

COMING UP...

What a Crash : DAILY TRADERS POUNCE

wauve what a crash...

two days ago i have sold all my stocks...only 20% of the amount is leftout...plain lucky.

As a daily trader I prefer taking out all at times as I cannot continue with huge losses and wait for them to comeup after a long gap. October has been so frustrating to me becuase market has been doing good...but Im in losses.

So thats the time we have to do something different...GETOUTOF all those stupid stocks immediately (no sentiments on stocks) and make your new LIST...It gives you a chance to re-enter with all your money, though you book some loss at that point of selling.

Thats what I have done 2 days ago. I WAS NOT GUESSING ANY CRASH of this sort. NOT AT ALL.

Accepting that minor loss is NOT an easy thing for 90% of the investors...thats the key:):):) esp. for daily traders. I did this n number times and I go full swing nexttime ...by not giving enough days gap. Let me give an example.

for say...you have 2 lakhs invested and you are getting around 20 thousand loss and you feel like that it is going to more...get out of it right away...and choose a better stock which is showing some momentum at that point of time...rather than waiting for that 20 thousand rupees to coverup in an year. Im saying like this so easily...but who would book 20 thousand loss...90% of salaried guys wont... But I do. I have learnt through years. Waiting is so boring in stock market.

GUYS keep collecting in small quantities now...every stock is cheap now. Shhhhh...pick ALOK, ROLTA & YES BANK atleast :):)

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will draft this soon...pls wait.

Mental Imbalance

Since many years, I have been so very fascinated about the concept called BRAIN...dont remember from where it got injected into my mind, whenever I had free time... I used to google on these words..."Mind", "Einstein", "RIGHT BRAIN", "LEFT BRAIN", "Einstein's Brain museum", "Weight of Einstein's Brain", "Research on Einstein's Brain", "Weight of the Brain", "What a human brain consists of", "BRAIN vs ANGER", "Mental Imbalance", "GREY CELLS", "The power of silence", "listening skills", "How do you get dreams, after asleep", "Story behind Dreams + Mind". Try it out...you would know what im saying...it will be interesting and entertaining. (May be, one reason could be that I love Einstein's Quotes ...since my childhood.).

Now in this regard, the most useful day to day life concept of all, for general public and for that matter to everyone who is working & not working...is the concept of Mental Imbalance. It is not something that a person is completely mentally handicapped, people often mis-understand the word Mental Imbalance. It could be situational. But this so called mental imbalance effects your life in a great deal. The decisions that you take during that time, sometimes, could make you suffer throughout your life. It happens to every human being, on some or other situation that you feel that you are not at the best of your mind, most of us can manage and control, which is a natural GIFT to humanbeings.

But there are some who cannot handle this...when it happens to them, it is visible to all...forget about decisions, their emotions wont be under their control. Iam not an expert nor a doctor here, it is like how people get to know when some body is sad, angry or happy, as simple as that. An extra pinch of experience on life and years of observation of various human characters, talking to them & dealing them professionally in day-2-day software life...gives you an edge, in understanding them better.

One of my classmate and close friend, used to take depression tablets during exams, otherwise he is very humorous and alert. One of my friend used to sweat a lot whenever he was in some kind of tension. One of the managers in HCL usedto BARK like a dog, shiver and talk like a fool about technicality...during the course of ANGER.

to be continued...bcoz its too late ...00:53 a,...and have a lot of things pending... before I hit the bed...

Intro of "The Fountainhead"

The following lines were picked up from the introduction pages of the world famous AYN RAND's Novel...THE FOUNTAINHEAD. I would not get bored reading them any number of times...Infact I would have read them some thousand times by now...especially the last paragraph shows her attitude and confidence...here we go....

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It is not in the nature of man--nor of any living entity--to start out by giving up, by spitting in one's own face and damning existence; that requires a process of corruption whose rapidity differes from man to man. Some give up at the first touch of pressure; some sell out; some run down by imperceptible degrees and lose their fire, never knowing when or how they lost it. Then all of these vanish in the vast swamp of their elders who tell them persistently that maturity consists of abandoning one's mind; security, of abandoning one's values; practicality, of losing self-esteem. Yet a few hold on and move on, knowing that that fire is not to be betrayed (using the word that two times here is absolutely correct), learning how to give it shape, purpose and reality. But whatever their future, at the dawn of their lives, men seek a noble vision of man's nature and of life's potential.

There are a few guideposts to find. The Fountainhead is one of them.

This is one of the cardinal reasons of The Fountainhead's lasting appeal: it is a confirmation of the spirit of youth, proclaiming man's glory, showing how much is possible.

It does not matter that only a few in each generation will grasp and achieve the full reality of man's proper stature--and that the rest will betray it. It is those few that move the world and give life its meaning--and it is those few that I have always sought to address. THE REST ARE NO CONCERN OF MINE; it is not me or The Fountainhead that they will betray; it is their own souls.

AYN RAND
NEW YORK, MAY 1968
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Selected Stocks Progress

On June 26th I have selected the following stocks (exposed them to public in this blog)...checkitout. Lets have a look at the progress.

June 26th --- October 25th

YESBANK 194.95 --- 256.85
BIOCON 226.00 --- 274.30
SATYAM COMPUTERS 72.75 --- 110.70
JAIPRAKASH ASSOCIATES 220.70 --- 237.70
ANDHRA BANK 83.30 --- 119.10
IDBIBANK 115.45 --- 128.00
RELIANCE NATURALS 91.10 --- 84.35
ALOK INDUSTRIES 22.20 --- 21.25
NTPC 194.95 --- 214.85

Though, I dont like holding on to a stock more than weeks, but still I would prefer a good stock even for intraday, the reason being is ...if you select a stock which has not got any good track record then the chances of surviving from a bad phase of that stock would be nullified.

For say, you have selected a stock for intraday, for suppose, and it went down drastically...in that case if it is a good stock then you can sit back and relax. If it is a not so good stock, then you are doomed. Because, you never know when it would rise again. For say JaiprakashAssociates touched 270 two days ago, now it is 237...which is absolutely fine. Thats the way the confidence on the stock should be. Alok never crossed 25, but still it is a good stock. It gave me so many opportunities in these three months, I used to buy 3000 stocks of alok, so 2rs profit is too much for me.

Offlate Im betting on ROLTA. I have rotated money around 4 times on ROLTA, sometimes for rs 10 and at times for rs 15 or so. Amazing growth, it started around 40rs in march, now its around 200. Huh....1 lakh in march is equal to 5 lakhs in oct...even after hearing this... you are still so calm and cool...getup and screammmm. If not, then stock market is not for you. You dont have that current in you. The zeaL FOR MONEY.:):):)

Our Cities

coming up...im drafting it...its going to be fun...:) Its about people.

Missing Noida

November 9th 2003, Sunday, was a new turn in my life, a special day. Because I landed in Noida from Mumbai, that day is still crystal clear to my eyes (stored securely in my photographic memory). Cool breeze, climate was pleasant, the auto guy took a little further than the actual address, I saw a big board of HSBC from far, looked pretty neat. I was enjoying the weather and looking all around the new place...least bothered about the address. The auto guy was shouting at me..." tikh tikh batou kahan pe jaana hai, nahin toh utaro yahinpe..." I was like wow...I have something to handle here. I replied, as calmly as possible to me..."Ab tak sow baar bolchukahun, Sector - 15 jaana hai mujhe, aur wahinpe utarna hai mereko". He looked at me as if he wanted to murder me right there...I continued to enjoy the nature. Autoguy calledup some other rikhsaw guy...to find where the hell this sector - 15 is...? on the other hand I was shocked to see a ricksaw, I remember something of that sort in my grandfather's village, the place where I was born, but even there I doubt whether they have rikhsaws till today...im sure they must have upgraded themselves to auto by now(2004)...even in that hardcore village.

The serene weather thing slowly goingaway from my mind... i was thinking like this..."is this so called NODIA a sick remote place?...my decision of coming to HCL & Noida is wrong ? Damn I was in mumbai...what a place !!!...and where Im I ??? !!! ". I said cool down BVN to myself. RICKSAW...the thing which I was seriously not comfortable at that point of time was...how can a educated man in today's world simply sit when some other person is carrying you and pulling you in a ricksaw !!! (hehe later on I got so used to it...everyday I usedto travel in that).

Now, lets come back to the addressfinding issue, the ricksawGuy said..." you have to goback to the next laalbatti"...this murderer autoguy was like..."oh laalbatti...i know that better"...meanwhile I hve sent the input to my mind as laalbaatti...interpreted, compiled and executed...the final output was...REDLIGHT...laalbatti means redlight....ooohhhh...fear gripped all over my face...i thought today is NOT my day...this guy is taking me through a redlight area ...my goodness...firstday in the city and hope he is not trying to give me more trouble...what the hell I thought.

But still, I had to use all my experience to keep myself calm...the auto guy took a U turn and took me 1 km backwards...stopped again...and started telling me..."yahin hai woh laalbatti...ab toh utarjaou...merekotime horahahai". I thought enough is enough...i was a bit furious this time...I said "mereko lalbatti pe kya karna hai...pagal hai kya ???...sow baar bolchuka hun...mereko sector 15 mein jaana hai...samja.." I was a bit loud this time.

Then he called somebody again and they told the autoguy to go further backwards...and the place where the whole drama of addressfinding was happening is a big four-road-meeting-junction this time and all of a sudden some bikeguy from nowhere... almost came inside the auto, so very fast...just missed...then the idea struck me...laalbatti means...SIGNAL...redlight (laal means red, batti means ...for say a candle ...kind of). so it means a Traffic Signal Post. huh...relieved I was...i said to myself wow noida !!! Crazy.

Finally he dropped near the guesthouse in noida, sector - 15...i got down with my luggage and the autoguy was asking for more...this time somewhat peacefully !!!...i think i gave him 10bugs more...he was quiet thistime as he didnt expect me to give that 10bugs..hehe...finally LEFT me in peace. Relieved.

Entered, the building looked decentEngough, some other guy from hyderabad staying right next to my room, shouting in high pitch...fully drunk, enjoying...obviously a new joinee like me, becuase that is a company guest house. I got inside my room and bolted the door. Took a nice bath...watched TV for 15 mins...jumped out of the bed to explore the nearby roads...it was around 9pm...saw some guys having roadside food...saw a 3rd grade stinking theatre out there...forgot the name of that theatre (will google and let you know):):)...I was liking that little walk so very much because of the climate...I felt like Im in a picnic spot...that chillness...and finally back to the guesthouse after about 45 mins or so. Little excited thinking about my firstday in HCL...watching TV but my mind was all about office...couldnt sleep much that night. I switchedoff A/C around 11 as I felt the weather was quite comfortable without a/c...and back to watching TV with ua fan ON...I think I fell asleep around 1Am.

I Dont remember the exact time...as I was in deep sleep :)...slowly getting into senses as I felt like someone kept ICE all over my body...it was damn cold...I gotup in a flash and sat right in the middle of the bed...dark and i could nt locate anything out there...hurried & searched for the LIGHT switch...and switched it ON with a bit of fear inside. The room was so coooool, may be like a mortuary. Immediately I switchedoff the fan, hesitantly kept my foot down...wooo...floor is like ICE. Then I understood...why they have placed such thick blankets on the bed...I was not using them at all. Relaxed after that silly realization...I smiled at myself...took some water and it took some 5 mins for me to start enjoying the chill...FRESH NOW...switched on the TV again...UNDERSTOOD that it gets really cold out there in NOIDA...hahaha. Back to the IdiotBox (TV) for some more hours...and slept again...this time with that thick blanket...:):):) Every night thereafter ...Till March 2004...ha ha ha

So much happened after that...everyday was eventful & memorable...met all kinds of people there and some animals too...:)

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THE FOUNTAINHEAD

I Always regret...why none of my friends & elders had ever suggested me to read the novel "The FountainHead", when I was going to school. Why it happened to me only a few years ago.

What a book...!!! What a person she was !!!...been to USA on a visitor visa at a very young age and stayed there forever till death. Look at the confidence when someone says ..."I dont care about the people who dont get the actual meaning of my writings (in fountainhead), they are not my concern".

How much she struggled to be what she wanted to be...she took almost 10 years to complete ATLAS SHRUGGED (her second greatest book and the best book of all), its been 50 yrs and this book is still breaking records.

How can a woman know more than what a man knew about himself and feel about Man's capability and brilliance ...more than what a man does !!! ...in this respect I guess she is the only woman of that kind ever existed in this universe !!!

She is one such personality for whom I regret that she is no more now...